What if...?

what if I had said
what if I had not done so?
what if I had not felt?
what if I had never looked?
what if I had never craved?
what if I had listened?
what if I had done so?
what if I had not strayed?
what if I had belonged?
what if I had cried?
what if I had consoled?
what if I had not bled?
what if I had just listened?
what if I had made it?
what if I had not stood so firm?
what if I had not been so stubborn?
what if I had cared enough not to?
My life is currently filled with many what if's...?