Instincts

Where do I go from here? Do I give into my emotions or do I use my head and take control of the situation? I have always found it very hard not to follow my heart...... where I am today is because of this weakness...yes WEAKNESS, it can break me into tatters but I still follow it until I am at the point of destruction and then what do I do? I use my head and make that final decision and preserve a little energy to gather up the pieces of my broken self.....The re entry of a body that has caused me much pain in the past has emerged and I can not turn my back on it. My instincts want to take on this unfinished project and bring it to a point of completion. My craziness wants to hold and protect this being from feeling so helpless and rewind it back to the point at which we deserted ourselves many years ago...