He questioned my intentions
"so whats wrong, feeling bored again? or just feeling low? or both?"
How could I reply that without him feeling low is not something that comes round occasionally, it has become a permanent fixture and the release of random messages is like a small dose of him from time to time. He is not to blame, if anything I should praise him on his patience and skill in handling such events that in normal circumstances would mean -
The End.
Inevitable has always been the key word in our situation even though never also seems to play a big part. I accept my lack of everything and can only continue feeling low at the thought, even though my heart takes several leaps into the air every single time.
It was supposed to dissolve into nothing...instead it is ever increasing.
He looked past me
and then at me
my heart was screaming
please don't leave
please don't go
he walked past me
and then at me
I awoke...
hanya
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