The Wire

A French Man's dream to walk across the void from one sister to another had me engrossed for 2 hours. The mind-set of a human being who has the strength to fulfil a dream, this man should become the role model of souls today - We seem to have lost the ability to dream and from that, the ability to follow our dreams - Live life your way - Do not break the laws laid out by God but instead make them work to your advantage. I  have spent my life walking on ‘The Wire’ - The fear of falling being greater than the fear of the fall itself- I stayed on, swaying from side to side and only now have reached the other side. I crossed the void, it took me over 21 years, I have reached the other side and fallen into the arms of my future, my dream has come true. 
~Hanya~

Trust HIS Plan

She broke down and wept

she supplicated for help
she asked why
the tears dried
her love was redeemed
she acquired her answers
what a plan
she whispered
what a great enigmatic plan
she never saw it approaching
it collided with her hard
but it restored her
she is so grateful

for the love

she has been graced with
the storm is over

the sun is shining

her love is safe
safe with him

following him

she will grow

~Hanya~

Cavern of Love

enclosed in a cavern of love

we reach one hundred

we did not start at one but at three

we reached a peak at four

we knew where we were going at five

and at six we became one

at seven you told me how

at eight I felt when

nine is always divisible by three so back to where we started

and ten well what can I say - it is one zero away from one hundred

so we reached one hundred just as easily as we reached ten

~Hanya~

Flutter

I flutter at the thought,

like a butterfly my wings spread and I feel a beauty from within

like a flower I bloom at the sound of love

the breeze on my face

the tingling in my toes

bring on the bells

ring them at will

I will dance to the sound

of a love so rare 

~Hanya~

Beauty

The unruly turf beneath my hair
the grass tickling my neck
the heat on my face 
the copper sulphate blue glaring at me with no crack in sight
why have I neglected myself from the beauties of this world?
the sky
the land
the trees
the grass
preoccupied in a bubble of stress

I allowed myself to forget how Allah has blessed us with this world 

He made beautiful for us this stage upon we all dance to the music of life

swaying left and right oblivious to what we see;

through the gift of sight
through the gift of touch
through the gift of taste
through the gift of sound
through the gift of smell

It took love for me to recognise this beauty and with this love I shall share this beauty.

~Hanya~ 

Mornings

Morning breaks with the sound of the calling

The voice breaks the silence

The sounds of the morning

A stretch here and a twist there

eyes remain closed while treasuring the love

adjusting to the light as the shadows are lifted

craving the touch of what's in offering

no reason to move

no reason to shift

this is it now

this is all I need now

Time is in a hurry 

the clock is ticking

the thought of 'bye'

eats at my being

I could stay this way

forever more

Stay with me forever more

This is it. This is all..........

~Hanya~ 

Love Letters

Wikipedia states - A love letter is a romantic way to express feelings of love in written form. Whether delivered by hand, mail, carrier pigeon, or romantically left in a secret location, the letter may be of anything from a short and simple message of love to a lengthy explanation of feelings. Love letters may 'move through the widest range of emotions, devotion, disappointment, grief and indignation, self-confidence, ambition, impatience, self-reproach and resignation

I once received a love letter when I was 7 years old– it was secretly passed down the row and I unfolded it to find a declaration of love from a boy who I had never noticed – I gave the note to my teacher who in turn reprimanded the little boy for inappropriate behaviour in a classroom – My brother of the age of 10 was then informed of this young boys desire to love his sister and was chased down the road and threatened to be beaten up – young love – the desire to express it – the desire to protect from the one true emotion that should be mandatory for our lives to revolve around.

34 years later consumed by love  I sit here pondering my first love letter – scrawled in a 7 year old's scribbles – how I wish I had returned his gesture and reciprocated his innocence and had promised to love this boy who was brave enough to express – I am still not that brave.

I have lived within a wall and withheld all the letters of love inside with me – I have searched for a purpose but it was not found – I have searched the heights and depths of my own heart but unwillingly resigned to a lie that Love Letters do not exist. Oh to believe such a lie and to not seek out the truth

It has taken me years to stumble across the truth after a lifetime of fumbling in the dark - to see the truth, to feel the truth and to be inundated with letters of love – I will not reject them this time I will not tell the teacher and I will not let the sender be chased down the road – the  love letter will be reciprocated – the love will be returned and the desire to express will be enclosed until each side drops to reveal a love so previous that it will shine through the night.

God Willing

~Hanya~

Flowers

He sent me flowers

A list of words 

Tell the tale of 'flowers'

~Hanya~

Amidst the chaos

amidst the chaos I found him

pulled up from the darkness

drawn to the light like a flower to the sun he warmed me

he consoled me

he fed me the truth and promised me my heart's desire

He is my angel

my knight

my friend

much love for this being who is saving me in more ways than one

will love and keep him always
~Hanya~ 

A stranger in the Darkness

I came across his words

I came across the images

I came across hurt

I came across dispirited

He gave me hope

He gave me sight

He gave me words

He gave me his word

I wanted to believe him

I wanted to hear him

I wanted to question him

I wanted to know him

A stranger from the darkness rose and held me

He cradled my fears and held me close

He made me believe in him

He made me believe in me

~Hanya~

Betrayed

betrayed by those that lay claim to love
betrayed by the very same blood that runs within me

betrayed by him

betrayed by her

betrayed by them

Hanya x 

HE took it all away - my hopes - my dreams - my sleep - unknown to me HE stole it all - HE left me stranded on a hill with nowhere to go - he took it all away - unknown to him he stole it all - HE threw me away -  with nowhere to turn - HE stole from me - HE left me. 

Hanya

Falling

I fell to the ground
He let me fall
he caused the fall

He blamed me for the fall

I walked in a daze
He let me walk in a daze
He caused the daze

He blamed me for the daze

He spoke to me
He let me speak
He said the words

He blamed me for his words

I am lost
He sold me
He lost me

He blamed me for the loss

Crushed beneath my own weight of thoughts
Drenched with tears
Trembling with fears

I fell

~Hanya~

DAY ONE - The Forty-one Rules of Love

The Forty Rules of Love engulfed my being for the last few days - speedily reading this book....now.... at this point in my life has renewed my energies and motivation to seek, feel and love. To find myself within the realms of the swirling layers or to sit at peace knowing that my layers will always swirl around those that I love and cherish.

True companions acknowledged 

The meaning of Love extinguished in order to be reborn in a new light 

I titled this piece FORTY ONE RULES OF LOVE as to me the first compulsory rule is to read this BOOK! 

To Be Continued...........