Part Six

'His wisdom astounds me and I run into his arms every day, praying his embrace will last forever'

~Hanya~

Part Five

'His words began healing me, his voice caressed my inner self, he knew how, he knew when'

~Hanya~

Part Four

'Opening my heart came easy, guarding my emotions was hard'

~Hanya~

Part Three

'The declaration of love startled me, it instantly erected a fear of loss, promises were made – Love was not lost

~Hanya~

Part Two

'Lost for words I spoke with my heart, he heard my silence, he listened to my heart'  ~Hanya~

Part One

 ‘Already he had enveloped me in his love, in silence he had captured me’

~Hanya~

It broke hard

You gave my heart it's ache,
You wrenched it open.
Justifying your strikes,
You cared nothing for the agony.

You consoled yourself,
believing your lies.
Surrendering to the fabrications
that your tongue fed your ears

You made visible your pain,
Yet buried me deep in mine.
I sought out souls to comfort me
But they too were your listeners

They trampled upon the remnants of my heart
They gloried on the feast of pain

This heart abandoned and lost
Wept for itself.
It had known nothing else. 
You, Your soul, Your heart relinquished its pain
You broke it.

You will always be the soul that broke my heart.

~Hanya~

Self-Esteem

SELF-ESTEEM

- In Sociology and Psychology, self-esteem reflects a person's overall subjective emotional evaluation of his or her own worth. It is a judgement of oneself as well as an attitude toward the self.

I ask myself
what is my worth?
am I something?
or am I nothing?
i ask myself
what was my worth?

With him
I fought for it
with him
I craved it
with him
I lost it

I was wrong
My self esteem had nothing to do with him
it is how I see myself
not how he did
my self -esteem is mine to control
it is for me
it was never for him to rule

braking out
killed the misconceptions
that dwelled for so long
it threw me out
the burden on my shoulders
it made me well again

~Hanya~