13 Sept 2008

forgiven and forgotten

forgive and
forget,
forgave, i think
but not forgotten
please forgive,
and forget
you have to...
forgive and forget
you have to now!
for your sake
for my sake
for her sake
for it's sake
aynah

Emerald city...here I come!


WHAT A FRIGHTFUL WEEK I'VE HAD!
a week full of curiosity, contemplation, anticipation and lots of talking!
Once again I reach crossroads and the decision to be made will impact my whole life from this day forward. I am hoping that I have placed my foot on the correct path and that this path will lead me to as near to the emerald city as I can get, of course like Dorothy the wizard behind the curtain may be small and not so great as perceived by the people of OZ but hey the yellow brick road was fun and adventurous and gave the experiences that she would never have experienced in her black and white hometown. Unfortunately I have no ruby shoes so there will be no going back to Kansas but I do have my friends full of courage,brains and love around me wishing me well and walking by me every step.
I think that I've done good and even though it was a shock to me, I shall stick with it through thick and thin and know that I will grow to adore this new part of my life that has discretely crept in but has now been welcomed with an open heart and mind.
to all those that have advised, questioned and held my hand... x x x

5 Sept 2008

aNiMaLs...

I wish I was wiser than the hooting owl
cleverer than the sly fox
stronger than the black stallion
smaller than the bear
quirkier than the pelican
swifter than the llama
faster than the cheetah
and more mellow than the raging bull!!!!
a known taurean on my block!
I need to stop comparing myself to animals!!!!
Planning a visit to London Zoo in October, what's the matter with me today? animals are
on the mind! I think I need to lay my head on a pillow that is softer than lambs wool!
and there I go again...

1 Sept 2008

Forever Friends


How long is a piece of string? That is the question that comes to mind when somebody asks me how I am? I want to shout back "I don't know" because that's the answer in my head, but what comes out is "I'm fine". Now that is not far from the truth really because I am usually
Frantic-Irate-Neurotic-Emotional
but hey they hear the word fine and move onto the talking about the weather and work blah blah blah. However there are always the exceptions, the pals who know just by looking at the angle of the glint in my eye that things are not quite touching the tips of the happiest place in town!

They understand and cherish the different angles at wish I flutter and sympathise with my state of affairs rather than judging my errors and predicting that I will accumulate further errors before learning from my so called mistakes. In actual fact i believe that they do not ever refer to such acts as mistakes but actions of impulse and necessary acts of defiance against a system in which I refuse to participate. These selected few are called my friends! In that respect I do not have many friends but the few I do have I cherish from somewhere deep in my heart forever.

It's Pink, Sleek and shiny!

It's pink, sleek and shiny! I have been waiting for some time now for the arrival of my new and exciting gadget... I have not had one of these before and I know that it will give me day's and nights of sheer pleasure!

I have always wanted one of these - to be able to use it in the privacy of my own home as well as when I am travelling and this will so use up all the spare time I currently have in my life...oh yes this is gonna help me feel so much better as it will access all areas and it is of course"top of the range". It has cost me a bob or two but hey why compromise for something less effective? the more attachments the more creative I can be!

I'll ensure that it is charged up so anywhere I go I can just pop it into it's bag and use it as and when I please... I am actually using it right now, kinda have to balance it on my knees as I am used to the tabletop kind but I'm sure I'll get use to it!

Yes you have guessed ... I have received my new laptop... oh yes yes yes!!!